Last night I drank and danced.

We are going to continue the story soon but unfortunately for now the hiatus from the crazy love story continues.

My story is still going on. I finished my application to Haifa and now I'm just waiting to see whether or not I get in.

As of now my after graduation plans are to join the IDF. I have a lot of really good and really cool reasons for wanting to do this.

We do the best that we can and sometimes love just isn't enough.

I can't say that I didn't see it coming...or that there were times that I thought that this would be easier.

Maybe it is easier. Who knows.

All I know is that I love the boy and I respect him if this is what he thinks is the best for him.

Mom keeps saying that time heals everything...but time was never an issue with us until there wasn't any to spend together any time soon. It didn't take any time for me to fall in love with him.

I knew that I was taking the easy way out by coming here...only it's not easy. It's possibly the hardest thing I've ever done.

I've been miserable since I left Israel and now I don't know where to call home.

So what if my heart is broken and it hurts to breathe. I still say that I'm one of the lucky ones.

What we had was real.

Tomorrow is a new day and so is the day after that.

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My tentative plans are to finish up the Fall semester at UF and the spring semester at Haifa. Then, at some point when my grades are transfered from Haifa to UF, I will be a college graduate (with honors!)

For years I have looked into joining the Peace Core after graduation but that doesn't make sense to me anymore considering the lack of patriotism I feel for America and the abundance of patriotism I feel for Israel. At this point, I'm planning on joining the Israeli army for 2 years post-graduation.

I think that it would be a life changing experience. I'd have to really get to know myself and I would be in a somewhat safe environment while doing so. Most likely it would be some kind of clerical/secretarial work...but maybe I could join the Israeli Army band and perform for the soldiers. I'll become fluent in Hebrew and then I can decide from there where I'd like to go.

Nothing is permeant or set in stone. We'll see what happens.

Pick your poison.

Silly Me

I need to start reading the fine print and trust my instincts.

I was RIGHT! There were/are a ton of courses for me to take at the University of Haifa.

I guess for some reason I was supposed to come back here.

But, GUESS WHERE I'M PLANNING ON BEING IN THE SPRING?!

University of Tel Aviv

The Admissions Committee is interested in learning about your reasons for study in Israel and specifically at Tel Aviv University. In the space below, please explain why you are applying for admission to the School for Overseas Students

I am applying for admission to the School for Overseas Students at the University of Tel Aviv because my heart is in Israel.

I spent this past summer living just outside of Tel Aviv. It was life changing and I did not realize how much I have changed and grown as a person until I came back to the US and started the fall semester of my senior year at the University of Florida.

Sitting at a restaurant near the Ben Hill Griffin football Stadium; bright orange, royal blue, and the occasional forest green rushed past me. Together it was a mismatched sea of people showing their support for meaninglessness teams and a meaningless event.

My schools colors are orange and blue, but those are not my true colors.

My passion is metallic gold and it bursts out of me like fireworks painting the night sky in a shimmery sparkle. Lying in the Negev this summer and looking up at the night sky, I saw my passion—It’s Israel. I saw my passion again while trying to watch a meteor shower while in Tel Aviv—It’s Israel.

Passion is a powerful and compelling emotion. My passion is strong and vibrant to succeed at living a life full of meaning by advocating for Israel.

My hopefulness is pastel.

It streams from me and surrounds me in lavender light. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had and that events will turn out for the best. My hope allows me to experience, accept, and surpass obstacles and hard times. Because of hope I can accept things as they come to me and make the most out of every situation.

I hope that I will be starting classes at the University of Tel Aviv in January and I hope that Israel will become my home when the time is right.

Some of my colors are obvious. My pastel hopefulness and metallic passion are completely visible. My love is bright red like a heart and my strength is a subtle yet determined turquoise blue.

My heart is in Israel and only with a strong foundation can I begin to build my life of meaning. I believe that studying at the University of Tel Aviv will help me to set the foundation that I have been longing for.

I still don't know the deal, but I heard the boy say that he loves me this morning.

I love him. I love him.

It's September 5th and I don't want to do that math to see how long I've been away from Itzik. All I know right now is that it's been about 4 days since I've heard from him.

I'm pretty sure that he is ignoring me...which is really strange and out of character of him.

It's killing me.


I'm in complete agony.